Forever there racing through my mind, I can’t switch off and I dance from here to there. I’m up and I’m down, I can’t switch off, I can be really up. I’ve always considered myself an optimist but this last year has been one of the toughest and I’ve had a lonely battle with me and myself. Through it all somehow I’ve managed to navigate myself to here still in this life but at times I’ve not wanted to be and the reason I’m still here is maybe because I’ve been too afraid to fail at attempting not to be. Mental health is talked about and there are so many wonderful charities out there but people talk and people listen but how many people are still afraid of the blunt truthfulness of how low someone can feel. No one really knows what’s happening inside of someone else, we all have thoughts but thoughts are only thoughts. What you think someone else thinks isn’t necessarily so and your assumption of someone else’s thoughts are also just thoughts, it’s a wonderful web we weave in our minds. There is a saying ‘No one sits high enough to judge anyone else’ and that is absolutely the truth. We post on social media ‘ the doors open’ ‘The kettles always on’ and yet the suicide rate increases and people talk and chat and bitch and isolate each other. Those closest to you can isolate you the most. I’ve noticed in life that those who inspire me the most are usually strangers, people I read about. Those who you think would be there for you are the furthest from you.

Life’s a journey and as long as you can keep going, you’ll come through, maybe even with a smile on your face. Find something or someone to believe in and take each moment by exactly that. Don’t overwhelm yourself with getting through the day or the morning just get through each hour if need be, just break it all down and eventually you will come through, along the way building yourself a mental tool kit to guide you through the next bit. Find your people or your person, find the right ones for you and forget the rest. Focus yourself on you and take the time to build. Listen to self help. Anything you don’t relate to switch off, there is so much out there so many inspirational people, books, podcasts just keep going.

I have zero qualifications in this field, I’m just a human going through life for the first time.